My one hada story

Nahihiya ako sa entry ko ngayon mga kunichiwa, pero keri! Hmpt!

I don’t make coffee in the morning when I wake up. Takbo ako sa Dunkin Donuts. Kahit na when I was still working in the city, stop-over ko sya on my way to work. Suki na nila ako. Im fack, nung nalaman nung gurl na out of job ako, aba! Wez na ako pagbayarin nang kape! Hindi ko lang sila inaraw-araw, hanggang hapon andun ako!

Chikadora ako mga kunichiwa and I always have a ready dis-arming smile. Otomatik yan. Sa bar parati akong naka-ngiti. Minsan na-ospital ako. Lock jaw.

So, one morning na nasa DD ako, I was outside – sipping coffee – smoking my lungs out and doing some readings, preparing for my job interview in Chicago.

Beside DD was an auto shop. Napalingon lang ako when I saw a guy in bicycle. Mukhang gwapo, malayo eh, tipong alas-onse. Lumapit saken, i guess alas dose sya. Pabagsak nang pabagsak, until kaharap ko na sya, no offense pero I think, alas dos sya. But hey, yon bang tipong paliliguan mo lang to, wisikan nang CK-B, Ok na? Hehehe!

• Short explanation dahil me isang reader asking me kung ano ang alas onse. Hahaha! Sa milky way namen, pag sinabing “pang-alas-nuebe”, it means, materyales fuertes at guapo. At habang tumatakbo ang oras, nauubos sila at ang mga natitira eh “pang-alas-dose”, yong tipong pwede pa hehehe, at pag sinabing “pang-alas dos”, yan ang oras nang sara nang bar, hatakin mo na dahil yan na lang ang natitira. Getz? Hahaha

“You got a light?” tanong nya.

Pansin ko, yong sigarilyo eh 1/4th na lang.

“Want one?” offer ko yong sigarilyo ko.
“Oh, thanks!” pasalamat nya.
“What were you doing there?” i asked.
“Looking for a job.” say nya.

Andy ang pangalan nya. Ayun, me common ground. Nauwi ang kwentuhan namen sa unemployment and everything, how tough it was to look for a job karon, lay-offs all over the place. Na-lay off daw sya. Pina-alis na rin sya nang temporary work nya. I made kwento na rin about my job in Princeton. Chugi boss ko. Hire nang bagong team an CEO. Pinalayas kinse, isa ako. Wiz ko na kwento ang dati kong work ko sa city.

“Where do you live?”, tanong nya.
“Right around here”, sabi ko. “What about you?” sinundan ko.

Sabi nya, he was living with his friends who were brothers. Kaso, nag-away, so he left the house and is staying at a half-way house. Di ko naintindihan kung ano yun. I just asked him kung ilang taon na ang dalwang brothers. In their 30’s daw. I guess, iba ang interest ko. Hehehe! (Update 8/25/08: i found out from Chuva na yong halfway house pala eh mga balay nang mga alcoholic at mga adik na nag-re-rehab! hahaha)

“You married?”, tanong nya.
“Nope”, gurlash ako. sabi ko.
“I knew it” sabi nya.
“How’d you know?” tanong ko.
“I just know.” sabi nya.

Gusto nyang hadain ako. Yon ang feel ko. Kaya siguro ako kinabahan. But then again… hmmm… Ok, fine – I admit. Ano eh… hehehe! Basta! So, I told him na di pede kasi, wa ako work. Nakikitira lang ako sa brother in law. Andun ang mother nya, father nya, doseng kapatid, yong lima me asawa, andun den lahat nang mga anak. Pati apo. Di pa kasali yong mga bedspacers. You know what I mean?

“If you want we can go to the river.” Say nya.
“River?!” kunyaring shock ako.

Of course, knowing nang lola ang sinabi nya. Haller! I should know, magaling ang teacher kong si Nelson who warned me about these places hahaha! Rehoboth! Provincetown! I mean, I know what people do there, honestly, ayoko nga baka maposasan ako dun, kahiya hiya sa mga readers ko no. So, I acted like… “Really? What do they do there?”. He narrated some incidents na nakita nya mga deretso daw andun nag-aaral nang gymnastics.

“Or, we can go to a moviehouse” sabi nya
“I don’t go to those places here! I live here!” sabi ko.

Which is true. Ayokong puntahan ang mga yan. Malay mo, paglabas ko eh bumulaga saken mga neighbors ko. Ngek!

I told him na busy ako with my reading materials and everything. Sabi ko na lang, let’s do it some other day.

“I gotta go.”, sabi ko.

And then, nagpalitan kami nang phone number.

“I’ll see you in the morning here.” sabi nya.
“Ok. I’m always here”.

Umuwi na ako.

Kina-umagahan, as is usual, DD uli ako. Dumating sya. Aba! Tinotoo! Chika lang. I wanted to get comfortable. Pero mukhang matino naman. Now, either sa kape or what pero kabado pa rin ako. I guess, dahil napasubo na ako…

“Nice car” sabi nya.
“This is my brod-in-law’s car not mine. I have to return it at 4pm”.

Drama ko yun, para kung sakali, maka-alpas ako before 4pm.

“I honestly don’t know where to go” sabi ko.
“Let’s go to this movie house I was telling you”. say nya.

Ayoko nga dun. An lapit sa bahay noh?!

“Let’s drive to Jersey. I saw one in there. It’s a good drive, but at least I’m safe.

Pumunta kami nang “Pulang Sabsaban” (Red Barn hehehe). Nag-laro kami nang barha and we touched each others tralala. Am pucha, pag-uwi namen, umutang pa nang pera saken! Pay daw nya ako pag-sahod nya. “I thought you don’t have a job!“. Meron na daw. Start na raw sya sa monday.

We stopped by at Walmart sa Franklin Mills. Buy sya nang celphone. In my mind, natawa talaga ako! Heck! Ganitong ganito ang mga drama nang mga boylets ko sa Manila! Haller! Hahaha! Sabagay, mura yong binili. Worth $30, taz prepaid na $10. Problem solved. I dropped him at McDonalds sa mall. Pag-baba nya, he gave me a kiss and said “I love you!”. Ngek! Amfuttta! Social climbing line ko yon ah! Nagbabasa ba to nang reyna elena?! So, umuwi na ako.

I expected that was it. Wala lang. Casual casual. Happen happen. Sum’tin sum’tin. After about two (2) days I guess, tumawag. Bumalik na daw sya sa friends house nya. I said, that was good at na-settle yong mga problems nila. He asked me to pick him up sa Bustleton and City Line around 2pm kasi nga pinag-mow pa sya nang lawn nung isang brother. Gora ang lola. Nasira daw ang lawn-mower. So, paalam sya sa brother that he was going to Home Depot. Wez naman kami go sa Home Depot, instead pina-ikot ikot nya ako around Oxford Valley at medyo kinabahan ako eh kasi medyo makahoy yong gina-drive ko.

“Where are we going?” medyo kabado ako.
“There’s a cheap motel I know” sabi nya.
“I don’t have money, man” sabi ko.
“It’s only $40″ sabi nya.
“Fine, I only have $80″ sabi ko.

So go kami. Gusto ko nang takbuhan. Pero takot ako. Yon bang nanginginig ang tuhod mo. Pinuntahan nya ang cashier. Bumalik sa car. $75 daw. So, ayun. Nag-laro kami nang jackstone. First time ko sa motel. Pramis. And I will never ever set foot in one. Hahahaha! Wag nyo na akong tanungin. It was the most expensive stay namen. It was over in less than 10 minutes. Ganun kabilis ang nobenang ginawa namen. Heck! Nanginginig ang tuhod ko noh! I kept on thinking kung pano ako makakaalpas dito! Grrr!~

I was going to drive him back to where I picked him up, pero nagpababa sa bus station. While driving, he said na he was going to rent an apartment and invited me to live with him. Eeeekkk! I was shocked, pero I declined. He also told me na in love daw sya saken. Ganun?! But what shocked me was that, he said na he is on probation. Whaaaatttt???! You have no idea how I felt! Yon bang parang tumalon sa takot ang kaluluwa ko?!

“For what?” shock ako!
“DUI” sabi nya.

Pansin nyo ung previous entry ko na sino ang baliw? Ako yun mga kunichiwa! Can you imagine what I have done?! Malay ko ba kung talagang DUI lang yun? Grrr!!! I was pretty scared right now. Why? Ewan ko ba kung anotong kabaliwang ginawa ko! I stopped seeing him. I stopped answering his calls. Wez na rin akong pumunta nang DD. I was thinking of changing my number, kaso baka mabura ang messages nya. He’s been calling me and so far had left me 5 6 7.8.9. 10+ messages. I had Chuva listened to the messages. Pati sya natakot. Pati ako tinakot na rin nang walanghiyang Chuva! Grrr! Lahat nang messages nya was telling me that he is so in love with me. One message says na hinahanap nya ang bahay ko. Tumindig balahibo koooo!!! Another, he warned na “you just cannot dished me like that!”. In other words, he was pretty pissed at me right now.

I was planning to call him. Sabihin ko na lang na lumipat na ako nang Chicago. Pano kung biglang sabihing tawagan ko sya from a pay phone para lumabas yong area code nang Chicago?

“Why do you have to lie?” Sabi naman ni Joey.
“Takutin mo sya na ire-report mo sya sa pulis.” dagdag nya.
“Call him, first. Explain mo na everything was just casual.” sabi naman ni Chuva.

Sisimangot na ako the next time I’m in public. In the meantime, yeah… ako ngayon ang walang WORLD PEACE, takot pa rin ako and I don’t know what to do.

UPDATE: Aug 25, 2008 10:31EST

Tumawag ang Chuva kahapon nang linggo. “Reynz, simba tayo nang 6:00pm, bitbitin mo yang pwet mo rito para hindi puro demonyo ang hada mo!” Sa takot ko, karipas ako nang takbo sa Jersey. It took me 30 minutes sa bilis. Eh minu-minuto tatawagan ka ba naman nang Chuva, “Oh, asan ka na?”. I honestly prayed to give this guy (Andy) some peace of mind at sana wag gumawa nang sum’tin sum’tin. Di na ako pinauwi nina YoungCanCook and nag-cook na sya nang dinner. Nag-ring ang phone. Private. Di ko sinagot. Sya pala. Nag-iwan na naman nang message. “I’m serious! I will be at DD between 9:30am to 10:30am! I’ll meet you there! I have money for the room!” Nangi-nginig na talaga ako sa takot.

“Alis ka dito nang 9am then get mo damit mo for your Washington DC trip taz balik ka here”, sabi ni Young. Well, dito na nga ako natulog. I can’t sleep. I woke up at 4am. I figured, buti pa nga kunin ko na mga damit ko. I drove back to Philly, kinuha ko mga damit ko, laptop and beauty products and paraphernalias. I was back at 7am sa Jersey.

I drove Young sa Office nila. At least for once, driver ang lola nyo ni Young. When I returned to Chuva’s house, me tumawag – Private – I answered the phone.

“Hey! I thought you we’rent gonna talk to me!” Si Andy nga!
“Listen, I’m sorry but I was travelling to Chicago last week and I left my phone at my brother’s house in Swedesboro” Malayo ang Swedesboro sa bahay ni Chuva. Drama ko lang yon.
“I went home last week and picked up my phone and I was shocked by your messages!” tuloy na sabi ko. Natawa sya. In my mind, this is good.
“Listen, I told you not to fall in love with me.” sabi ko.
“I know, I know” sabi nya.
“I’m not looking for a boyfriend or a relationship and you know that!” tuloy tuloy kong sabi.
“Me too! Me too!” actually, medyo shock ako sa answer nya.
“I thought it was just a casual thing and you scared me with your messages.” sabi ko
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” sabi nya.
“I moved to Washington DC already and I have an orientation at 1pm today”, drama ko.
“Are you coming back to Philly?” parang shock na tanong nya.
“Maybe during the holidays” sabi ko.
“Keep my number and call me. I gotta go because I’m headed to work”, sabi nya.

UPDATE: Aug 31, 2008 10:31EST
Wez nang tumawag. But the last message was that lumipat daw nang Parkwood! Susko! Eh anlafeeet nun sa neighborhood nang lola! Waaaa!!! I pray na magkaron nang WORLD PEACE ang kolokoy na to at walang gawing masama! Pramis! Titino na talaga ako! Waaaa!

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