I’m crazy for you!
“Do you still love me?”
“Of course! I do! Ano ka ba?” That was his response. Such is the difficulty of a long-range relationship. Half the world long. Very long! And I needed some assurance. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m madly in love. Crazy in love. Whatever. With him. What can I do, I just adore him. And everytime I am home, we always had a great time. Yeah, we had our fights. I’ve noticed some jealous rage. Or was it for something else? We actually had a serious fight on New Year’s eve. Because of what I saw on his mobile phone. Him naked with some girl. I was enraged! We kissed and made up a few days later. That girl, according to him, was history. I believed him.
This is the most difficult part of working overseas. You leave the people that you love behind. A lot of the people do not understand how difficult it is to work abroad. All they think is dollars. It’s not all that. It’s much more. Sometimes, it’s called lost love and broken hearts. We’re not just a bunch of machines, cranking out some mighty dollars, send it back home, everybody is happy and gay. We’ve got feelings too that needs some nourishment and well, attention.
“I have something to tell you.”
I hate that phrase. I always knew that what follows next is something which will not be pleasant to my ears. I said, “What’s up?! Is everything’s ok with you?”. He said, “Yeah! I’ve been doing some training for the past couple of months now. I should be finished right around July and I expect to be able to go abroad, hopefully, this year. I quit my job, already so I could go full-time with this training.”
“Training? What’s this? Abroad? So, this is what you’re telling me?”
He said, “No. It’s like this. I didn’t know how to tell you – but, I’m sure you’ll be able to find someone new.”
“That’s it? That easy? You nuts?! What are you talking about?!”
My heart was beating faster. My blood pressure probably cranked up like crazy. I thought I knew what he was going to say. But then again, somehow deep inside the corner of my brain, I hope he was just making some sick joke on me. I wished. There was silence on the phone. I could feel, he was having some tough time explaining what’s going on. He was trying to be funny and make me laugh but it’s not working. It won’t work! I am feeling angry. I think, I know. I think I heard this before. I hope it’s not true.
“I will soon have a baby. She’s 3 months pregnant.” His voice is cracking up, or was it the phone signal? “We have to get married in August because she’s getting bigger and if we do it longer, we’re afraid the church won’t allow us to get married”. He continued talking. My mind was already somewhere in Byelorussia or was it Vladivostok?
Silence
of the lambs.Really silent. I could even hear the static lines.
“I want you to come home.”
… and be the ninong. That’s what he said. I honestly don’t know what to think. I must have said yes, although some big bold NO were plastered all over my mind, body and soul!
“I will always love you. You will always be my boyfriend.”
He said… “Don’t worry – you’ll find another one.”
I honestly hate that stupid appeasement line. Fuck that shit!
I’m angry!~!@#$%^&*(
Why does it have to end this way?!
SAVE ME
josh-verdes-save-me.mp3
Josh Verdes
(Lyrics stolen from Chuvaness)
Save me
I feel like I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady man
She’s He’s got me on my knees
I’m saying baby baby dong! dong! please
Don’t leave tonight FOREVER without giving me
Some of your lovin’ it makes me weak
Somebody save me
And lately
I feel like I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady man
The way her his lips just move
The way her his hips just groove
The feelin’ I get when she he says my name
It’s a feeling that never feels the same
Save me
Coz I found the
Love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
And I know I’m just way too deep
Someone, oh someone
Save me now
And lately,
I know I’m goin’ crazy
I’ve got this lady man
You’re now that’s all I think about
The next time I can think around
I really don’t wanna feel this way
But I think it’s already way too late
Save me
I found the love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
I know..I’m just way too deep
Someone ooohh someone
Save me
Coz I’ve been there way too many times before
And everytime I say it’s not gonna work
Not this time so…save me
Just save me
Somebody save me
Yeah…oh ohhh
Coz I found the love that is one of a kind
This time I’m in for real
and I know I’m just way too deep
Someone…oh someone
I said someone….
Save me now
Save me now…
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naku, inang!!! at zinu na naman ba yan? dagdag na naman siya sa mga sugat na iniwan ng mga ama naming mga anak mo. Wag mo na isipin yun. e tingnan mo nga, yung mga tatay namin, ilan sila, fito! siyete! eh tingnan mo nalimutan mo silang lahat! ganyan din mangyayari dyan sa ka-long, long distance love affair mo na yan.
madali lang gamutin yang sugat sa puso na yan. kumuha ka ng penicillin na tablet, durugin mo. ihalo mo sa pomada. humanap ka dyan ng lolo na gumagamit ng pomada. tapos, pag nahalo mo na mabuti, isalpak mo sa sugat ng heart mo hehehe
o kung ayaw mo ng amoy na pomada, ngumuya ka ng ngumuya ng bablogam tapos yun ang isalpak mo sa broken heart hehehe
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Aray ko!!! ang sakit sakit naman… it feels like someone stuck a dagger on my heart… there are really man who are selfish … there are woman who are just not lucky…
teka lang noh… lumalabas ang aking split personality…
hindi ko ko kaya ung mga ganyang story… gusto ko ung happy ending at ikaw ung bida… ayan na depress ako =-(
mag chachange ng kulay ang balat ko di nako pink…
*** i am hurting deep inside… nagugutom tuloy ako ***
alam ko lang u never lose a love you never have kasi kung talagang love ka nya he is your ever and ever… parang fairytale ganun
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To love is like working in a company. In earlier stage, somehow you will feel secure and appreciable. Soon thereafter, end becomes inevitable. Either you change employment or your service is no longer required.
But life will still go on. And the next time you realize, you are employed in another Company, holding a more bigger thing (position).
Since guys had always throw hell on your shoulder, why not choose another kind. Let say a girl for a change. Who knows she might be more than meets the eye.
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Girl??? Nong kala mo ke Reynz, tomboy??? Ahihihi jokjokbulanti, wag mapipikon ang asthong *wink*..
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Okray ka Reynz, sa dami ng boyfriends mo’t puro ka madly inlurrrvvv sa kanila, hmp care mo sa isa lang!
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ahahahahah…ahhahahaha…ahahahhahah…ahuhuhuhhu…ahuhuhuuhu…ahuhuhuhuhuhuh
ano ba yan…natatawa ko na naiiyak sayo
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binabasa ko yun post mo while listening to this song, naman, nakakaiyak…hahahha. feel na feel ko mag emote. try mo i-experience.
[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_5olycnxGU]
“What About Love?”
by LEMAR
What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things
That really mattered?
What if I ran through
Hoops of disaster?
No one would care if
We never made it
We’re in this alone
So why don’t we face it
There is no room to
Blame one another
We just need time to
Forgive each other
[Chorus:]
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby…what about us?
How can I give this
Love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain?
It’s never ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we
Should be keep calling
I’ll take the rivers rise
I’ll take the happy times
I’ll take the moments of disaster
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girl ba kamo para kay Reynz? Ehem-ehem-ehermmm
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anuva!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mga nakikibaliw kayo sa lost love na yan.. leche!!
When I think of home…
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hala! nagdurugo ang puso ni inang ngayon…
lika nga dito… hug kita. *hugz higpit*
wag ka malongkot, andito naman kami eh.
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bea,
galing me New York, punta nang Chinatown, naghahanap nang puting rabbit.
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pink na biik,
sa fairytale na to? ako lang ang fairy. sya yung me tail. bwisit na yun!
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Asthong Kutchong,
and what em eye gonna do wid her? ititirintas ung buhok? ai’nt gonna work. ni ayoko nga makakita nang suso noh! i get nightmares when dot happens
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kuta,
sa totoo lang mudami me talaga boy friends. pero isa lang ang may i love you. monogamicitylicious ako noh? ba’t ganun? kung sino pang mahal mo, sya pa ginahasa nang hapon?
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chuvaness/malen,
na-pa emote ako nang todo! nagmukhang pasig river tong kama ko!
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diwa,
yaan mo, yon mga nalolokang bubwit saken, forward ko seo. meron na namang isa. puchang buhay to. saan makakabili nang pink suit pang-opisina? o kaya magbibit ako nang placard.
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chuva,
nalasing ako. galing ako sa polish bar, tumigok nang tumigok nang vodka straight – grabe pala ang mga polish na to! said nya saken kanina – le’ts drown your sorrows. eto, alas dos na, nag-lalangoy ang aking sorrows.
oo na! get ko na! tenk you sa post mo! nakalimutan mo…
LOST WALLET and BROKEN REFS!
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ghandee,
di ba me-nagpos dun sa isang article na SEAMANLOLOKO? hmpptt! yoko na talaga!!!!! peks mannnn!!!!
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OOOKKKKRAAAYYY na namaannnnn….Wede ba, simula pa lang alam mo naman na ang ending! Tahan na at maghanap ka ulit, marami dyan! The rule is, make every moment count because it ain’t gonna last girl…
Next time, pag may nanghingi ng ref, dafat nandun ka mismo kapag nagbigay ka para makuha mo agad ang kabayaran, kaliwaan bah!!! Walang libre libre gurl, di na uso yan!
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Ay naku, mam kutz – eh mas matigas pa ulo niyan sa batung puti no? Kaya kahin ano pang adbays diyan, basta magbibigay ng ref, washing machine at kung anu anu pang aplayanseses!!
Basta ako, wa ako kowment – dahil baka maimbyerna lang aketch. Di naman siyang mukhang kulugo, bakit ba nagtiyatiyaga sa mga bayaran.. ewan!
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KALIWAAN?! nyuk! nyuk! nyuk! hahahahhaa! *miiyak* hahahahaha!
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oo- kaliwaan!! yun bang hawak mo yung ref, sa kabila ***Censored*** – at huwag kang bibitaw hanggang hindi naibigay ang hilig!
kuta – lowka ka – alas dos imedya na rito – bumubulantak ako ng katatatawa!! letche ka!
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Lukresia kasi ang isang iyan noh, jojombagin ko na nga’t baka umabot pa dito sa disyerto ang luha nyan at bumaha dine!!! Hmp!
Uli uli gamitin mo yang utak mo ha? Kung nashashy kang magsabi in person, gumawa ka ng table ob gib aweys at ang katumbas na number ob hada, har har har!!! Piktapos, pag good behavior nila sa imo, avah, wede silang mag fin foynt ng feel nilang reward sa list ob gib aweys mo pero dafat malinaw sa kanila ang kavayaran!!! Chienes!!!!
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hahahaha!!! kahit bangag na bangag ako gulo gulo ko rito sa mga kabaliwan mo kuta at chuva! alas dos korenta na nang umaga!!!!!
*tumawag Obet – ginapressure nga me na umuwi, tanggapin at kausapin ko na raw nga para matapos na. say ko, di ba tinapos na nya nga?
padalhan ko na lang kaya nang mastercard?
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LETCHE! Kala nila ganun ka mura pamasahe! Para ano naman at kailangan sadyain pa ang kasal niya? Para mamigay ka ng regalo? Tse, baka sa iyo pa magpabili ng sapatos yon no? Yuck!
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*kumakanta*
Dito ba?
Dito ba?
Ang dapat kung kalagyan?
Sa isang sulok na . . . ( me nag teks tiga Flippines)
si JC
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ba’t ganun? kung sino pang mahal mo, sya pa ginahasa nang hapon?/b>
ganon talaga inang… sabi nga nga ni diwa mabenta ang karneng me nagmamay-ari na! hehe.
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mambabae ka na lang kasi wala pang problema!
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Don’t cry over spilled milk…
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dont yu wori reynz, madami pa naman diyan..babae,tomboy, lalaki, silahis,girl na girl or pa girl……makakapamili ka pa…..
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ghandee,
di ba nga?! kung ano yong bawal, tsaka naman ina-asam-asam
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diwa,
imposible talagang maging tomboy ako. gusto mong marinig ang next episode nang “crazy things happen when i take off my crown?”
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dom OSB,
eto, nag-sa-shapping na… hopefully, matino ang makuha ko, yong walang bahid na formalin
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